fate or fight?

i didnt remember anything that Allah didnt give what i want in life up untill now. He gave everything i want until i am what i am, until i am where i am and until i am who i am now. Alhamdulillah. i dont know but sometimes i felt that i wasnt worth the things that He gave me. maybe He just want to test how grateful i am. and im grateful YaAllah. Thank you.. i know, He loves me. He loves all of us. thank you Allah.

and today i've been tested with something. we have to choose between A and B. and i chose A, but i got B. both are  quite the same, but i have a strong reason why i want A. and Allah gave me B.

the moment i know i got B, i was speechless because i was very confident that i will get A. i dunno know how to react. i dunno how He wants me to react. we can fight for it to get A but i dunno why my heart said, maybe it is fate. maybe Allah gave u B because He knows u will be better, will be good, will excellent if u go to B. and i started to hesitate to request for a change to go to A.

and i eaaaat (?), reading quran, solat and keep my mind and heart calm, and i decided to TRY.

ok. maybe Allah have started not to go easy with me. He wants me to try maybe? to fight for it?

ok. i've tried one step and im waiting for a reply.

so now i've tried. and if it's still the same, i'll accept it as a fate. REDHA. He knows better, right?

ALLAH (subhanahu wa ta’ala) said: "If you never felt pain or experienced problems, how would you know I’m the Healer? If you never made a mistake, how would you know I’m the Forgiver? If you were never hurt, how would you know I am the Comforter? If your life was perfect, then why would you need Me?" [Hadith Qudsi]