Trauma

Ahad lepas, the first time ever happened in my life. YaAllah... xtaw mcm ni rupanya perasaan org trauma...

Ahad lepas, around 6.20pm.. di siang hari ye, tgh baring2 online mengadap laptop, tetibe ade org bukak pintu. seorang lelaki yg x dikenali perlahan2 bukak pintu, jenguk dlm bilik. creepy gile! that guy had a scar yg mcm berdarah lagi on his right cheek. still can remember his face right until this moment. and then, we had eye contact. then, he closed the door. and i was like, WHO IS THAT!!! for one minute.. blurrrr... and then, bru lari kat pintu, tahan pintu kalau kalau dia masuk lagi skali ke. da xkesah da kalau die nk amek brg2 kat luar bilik or downstairs. yg penting diri selamat. padhi dalam bilik air tgh mandi. so at least i know she's safe as well. d xde kat rumah. dalam otak, ligat fikir, sape tuuu!!!!! nak kol 999 ke, 991 ke, and terus lari kat laptop google nombor fon the nearest police station. ye, semua orang kene ade nombor emergency tuk call dlm fon masing masing okay. big lesson learned.

mmg tgn and kaki shaking mase tu. ketar ketar google nombor fon polis. and macam nak nangis pun ade! in fact da nanges da pun. i waited for 5min. nk tunggu padhi keluar from bathroom. tp lame sgt, keluar dr bilik perlahan2, senyap je kat bawah, ketuk bilik air and bgtaw padhi, "ade orang masuk rumah..." dgn nada nangis. ktrg pun turun bawah perlahan lahan and tgk our back door was wide open! that guy used a shovel to kopak the sliding door. YaAllahhhh....

and we dont know what to do. our landlord's not picking up the phone. nak kol police ke x, sebab org tu xamek pape pun. and he left already. then, we saw that guy came back. takut gile! ktrg jerit la ape lagi! ingatkan die nk masuk balik rumah attack ktrg ke ape. rupenye nak amek his shovel back. and left. at that moment, terus kol police. and we waited outside at the front door. nampak that guy lalu from belakang rumah ktrg, jalan depan park in front of our house. die da tuka sweater. but i 100% sure that was him. i remembered his face... aaaaaaaaaa lambat gile polis dtg. that guy da blah da. tp tetibe, die lalu lagi skali and kebetulan polis smpai. terus tunjuk, "i think that was him" and polis pegi kat die, and i need to confirm whether that was him or not. yup! definitely yes.

and they arrested him.

that night, housemates tny, ok x? sebab yg paling trauma mesti la org yg nampak org tu. tp ckp mcm ok je.. tapi.. i was wrong. i thought i was okay but no. everytime dgr bunyi something in the middle of the night, akan terjaga.. i couldnt sleep that night.. and i was tired the whole day...

dah la tgh buat rotation psychiatry at the moment... mmg boleh diagnose diri sendiri as mild depression... duration je xckup 2 weeks.

tapi, thinking back, Alhamdulillah sgt, die xmasuk terus bilik and attack me. mmg masa tu laptop je la protection yg ada.. mmg baling laptop kat dia.. Alhamdulillah YaAllah..Yang Maha Pelindung..

i need time to get over this..trauma... :(